My Gatekeeper



Posted: Monday, September 13, 2010

by Jackie Rowland







5am I can't sleep; thoughts of you have comsumed me
I wish I could say that they were good,
But truth it you know how horrifid I am.

Never expecting to see your face
I looked at your picture and I froze in place.
Fear took over, I lost all control

My body went weak, straight down to my soul.
My own personal gate keeper,
Satan's imp that he was
Imprisoned me in my life and brought misrey to love.


There are days I still feel you creep in my dreams
Bound there I can't run, I can't even scream
My life you have taken now for 25 years
My innocence stolen my soul condemed to fear.

Not sure I can ever release all you've done
To destroy what was once the women I become
Shatterd and torn, lost and afraid,
Do I dare allow myslef out of this grave?

Just maybe there may be a chance some day
All I can do is hope, kneel and pray.
One day there will be a new gate keeper of my soul,
The one with the key who desires no control.


Love and laugter he will bring to my life,
No better way to love, than by bringing a smile.

Jackie Rowland

8-6-2010

Writing poetry has been a part of Jackie since she could breath. She usually writes in free verse, that way her heart and soul can lead her to the words to pen .

Mostly she writes about her life and the journeys she has had to endure. So if you read something she has wrote more than likely she has lived it. She always trys to smile and even when her life is in total shambles but most people don't know it.

One more thing dont be suprised if you find yourself in her poetry, if you have inspired her in any way she will most likely write about it . Enjoy her poetry and please leave comments good or bad she just wants your true opinions , how can she grow with out them.

Check out her website @ www.jackierowland.com

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» left by Jennifer Stewart
 1 year 248 days ago.
153 fans.
Jackie, this poem is just as powerful as the last one I read. I think you could be the gatekeeper of your soul, so that you could decide who to let in and who not to. I hope you don't get hurt like this again.
» left by Jackie Rowland from Topeka, Kansas 1 year 247 days ago.
Thank you Jennifer that means alot.. I have just recently discoved ecactly that , I own that key no one else...
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